I feel sad for no reason. Well, it’s probably a lot of reasons finally bubbling over, but they’re tiny and not worth talking about. At least, that’s how I feel.
And I don’t want to ruin anyone’s good mood by talking about it, anyway..
So I just kinda vent to myself. And wait for it to go away.
And why is it always at its worst when there’s no one with me? :C
Can’t talk to my dad or brother about it anyway because, well, I’m pretty sure they wouldn’t want to hear it. Plus my brother stops taking me seriously when I cry. He said to me today “You can choose not to be sad, you know.” Not really. Because it’s not something I chose to be, it’s something I am. I didn’t choose to be sad, I just am sad. And if I don’t know why I’m sad, how am I supposed to cheer myself up?
And my dad, too; he doesn’t understand. So he just kinda acts like I’m overreacting to whatever it is and laughs to himself or stares at me. Like he’s waiting for me to just calm down.
And my mom wants to talk about it, but the worst part is that I wouldn’t even know what to say if she, or anyone, asked what was wrong.
So I just pretend like I’m fine…